Apr 30, 2009
Apr 29, 2009
"We get to go back to school tomorrow!"
Madeline (the Senior) said, "Can I drop out?"
I said, " Madeline, you have 25 days of high school left what happened to enduring to the end?"
She said, "Mom, like, NOBODY does that anymore."
I said, "Yeah, you may be right, but in our family we do."
Who does endure to the end anymore?
I occasionally get in the mood to expose the children to movies I watched in the 80's. Those movies are always cheap at the rental store. And it is always interesting to me to see what I did not retain from the first time I saw the movie a bazillion years ago. :) So last week I had one of those, "let's rent 80's movies moments" so I rented Romancing The Stone and a few Star Trek movies. I got dinner out of the way and then shouted to the children,
"Eighties party in the basement"
And Tatiana (the 9 year old) said, "Is that for people who haven't ate?" :)
I guess I need to educate the child born in 1996 on what the 80's were.
Apr 28, 2009
For an entire year I have effectively ignored it. But then the signs that I should face it started adding up. Tight clothes, not wanting to be caught on film, tight clothes, cringing when seeing pictures of myself.....did I mention tight clothes? :) I often find that not facing things is the way I like to deal with them. You know maybe they will go away if you ignore them. Well that is not the case in this situation. It apparently, without my permission, just kept getting bigger. But I had absolutely no idea how much until last night when I made the simple choice to stand on that stupid, coldhearted scale. What I saw shocked me into action. When I moved to Massachusetts the scale said 120 and that is not what it said last night. I panicked. And I realized that when THEY say you have to hit rock bottom before you do something THEY were right. This is the first time in my life that I have hit rock bottom. And it is a unexpectedly, rejuvinating feeling. I had to really concentrate on the feeling since I did not recognize it.....what is this?.....oh my gosh, it is determination. Wow, I have not felt that in a long time. Hey everyone look at me I am determined!!
First thing I did was march into the kitchen and scold my family members for not telling me I was fat. What kind of friends are they?
Second thing I did was go in the basement and find the purple folder that I knew had a handful of blank calendars sitting in it. Those calenders had been waiting patiently for about 10 years for me to need them. I went upstairs with my calenders and I sharpened a pencil, because everyone knows you can not start something new without a freshly sharpened pencil and then I wrote in black Sharpie on the top of my calendar, "Your mom is fat." Then I filled in all the days in May. Then on each and every day, except Sunday, I wrote "exercise, water, portions." On Sunday it just says, "water and portions." Water means 8 glasses of water and I can cross it off IF I drink my 8 glasses. Exercise means 3 miles everyday PLUS my 30 minute toning video and I can cross it off IF I do it. Portions means....well it basically means portions and I can cross it off IF I recognize the portion size :) Down the side of the calendar I wrote the words, "Carbs are evil."
Then I wrote how much I weighed on the calendar in plain view for everyone who walks in the house and looks on my fridge to see. Then I decided 20 lbs off of that number would be just about perfect and very reasonable. I asked the little, tiny 14 year old who happened to be sitting at the table with me how long she thought it would take me to lose 20 lbs and she went on and on about how she had lost 3 lbs when she started track and then gained it back over spring break....blah, blah, blah. I realized I can not ask a cute, skinny person that question. So in my mind I decided that I want it gone by Labor Day for our annual trip to the beach.
I confess I think I really like being determined :)
Apr 24, 2009
The hike up is definitely up.....straight up. But there is a railing and beautifully maintained steps and lots of lookout platforms for you to stop at and admire the falls along the way. There are several different waterfalls as you go up the mountain. Not just the one that you see from the parking lot. My favorite one is the picture on top of my blog. When we got to the top we found some calm pools of water for the kids to throw rocks on and wade in. Then when we headed down we headed down the other side of the falls. That side is just a trail through woods. But it was very pretty. And not as steep as the coming up side was.
When we arrived at the hike there were not many people there but as we were leaving the hike at about 2:00pm two school buses full of teenagers pulled up and I breathed a sigh of relief....in my head...of course :)
Oh, the hour and 20 minute drive? It was a beautiful drive through all sorts of interesting towns in Connecticut. The kids did fine. I mean if you throw in McDonalds to eat and stickers to play with can anything ever go wrong? :)
So, after all my reading I now have an amazing list of some not so easy hikes that I am going to have to con some poor unsuspecting friends into trying with me. The good part is that hiking is free...so hopefully that will help my cause :)
Apr 23, 2009
Spring "see our friends every waking minute"
Spring "see how long we can keep mom in the car",
Spring "dirty every cup in the house,"
OR (my personal favorite)
Spring "make messes you do not intend to clean up without some good weeping and wailing action."
But I will say we got a small hike in before it rained on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. I introduced Joe to Romancing The Stone and Star Trek Generations. I read an entire book about the tragedy of the whaling ship Essex on Wednesday. We ended up organizing my fabric on Wednesday night. And tomorrow the weather is supposed to be nice so we are going to climb to the most popular waterfall in Connecticut. So take that....people lounging in Hawaii without a care in the world. :)
Apr 21, 2009
My hubby and my mom had gone home from the hospital leaving me in a very quiet hospital room. If you can believe it I honestly did not have anyone to call to talk about the fact that I had just had my first baby. And I do love to talk, so I just picked up my little, very cute baby and talked away. He sat there very quietly with his eyes open and he really seemed to be listening. I told him about all sorts of things. It was a little odd to be talking out loud to this 6 hour old baby but I had great plans for him and he seemed genuinely interested in hearing them.
Nineteen years flew by. Some of them he was embarrassed of me. Some of them he was my friend. Some of them I had to make him do things he did not want to do. Some of them he wore sweat pants when I wanted him to wear jeans. :) All I can say is the 19 years went fast, just like everyone who knew they would had said they would. I feel like breaking into song....."sunrise, sunset.....quickly go the years".... :)
But tomorrow he heads into the Missionary Training Center in Provo. Today he had his last final at BYU. You may think we did not plan the timing of that so well, but I think it is turning out the way it should. I saw him in March but the siblings have not seen him since December and will not see him for two years. Brian managed to have some business in Utah, which is good, so he was able to help him pack up stuff, help him decide what to leave in Utah for Madeline when she gets to BYU, help him clean his apartment, gather all his last minute stuff and will drop him at the MTC tomorrow.
I wonder what goes through a missionaries head the night before he goes into the MTC?
I can tell you the mom of the missionary has a lot of thoughts going through her head....worldly advice she forgot to give. :) Does he have everything he needs? Did everything fit in the suitcases? Is he worried about anything? Can I afford this? Should I have a bought him a different size shirt? Will he eat? Will he use his Carmex? :) I am not a hovering kind of mom. I am not a "touchy feely" kind of mom. Does he know how much I love him?
Zach does not feel comfortable with me bragging about him. So I won't.....even though I could. :) But we will miss him terribly. He has been so good at calling us from BYU. He always asks to talk to all his siblings when he calls and he asks them lots of questions about how they are. When he is home he will play Memory with the little girls which no one else ever does. When he is home there is always someone asking if they can help me. When he is home we never forget to have family prayer or scripture study.
All I can do at this point in the game is resolve to be a good letter writer. And try to be as good of an example as he is at living the gospel.
Apr 20, 2009
#1. Spring break started today.....6 kids at home wanting the computer. Six kids at home wanting me to be in the car driving them places :)
#2. Brian is gone for ten days to Utah and Florida.
#3. Zach goes into the MTC on Wednesday......harder than I thought :)
#4. I suffered trauma from only getting 4 TOTAL comments in the whole week last week....yes, I sadly, care about comments and immediately connect them directly to my self worth :)
#5. I am in the middle of an amazing book called Deep Survival by Laurence Gonzales that I can not put down.
#6. I need to wash my hair :)
#7. The yard still needs a little bit more attention :)
#8. I may just watch DVD's all week :)
Apr 17, 2009
When you are in a parking lot do you park in the first spot you see or do you hunt for the perfect one? I park in the first one I see. It drives me crazy to drive around hunting for something that I may or may not find. I would rather spend my time getting into the store.
I have been diligent in figuring out my food storage lately and I figured out that for a family my size I need 400 lbs of flour for my years supply. 50 lbs of flour is $14.00 at Costco. So I am going to buy a bag every two weeks until I have my 400 lbs. So, you know how when you put the seats down in some mini vans you have to take the headrests off? And that when you take them off they have two very tempting long shiny "pokey" things hanging off the end that make you think you need to puncture something? Well my 6 year old OR 9 year old could not resist the "urge to puncture" and headrest met bag of 50 lb bag of flour. Very sad.
I was teasing my sister in law who I just converted to Facebook that when I went to find her, and "friend" her on Facebook that there were 6 other people on Facebook with her name. Well she mentioned to me the other day when we were talking that she checked out my name and there were 159 of me on Facebook. Oh drat, how could I absolutely know that there is a whole, huge world out there and still live in some fantasy world that my name and my birthday are just mine?
So I am off to face the yard work that I have been dying to get to all week. Brian is taking the older kids white water rafting tomorrow. Madeline and Amanda have a track meet. So Natalie, Tatiana and I are going to enjoy the peace and quiet.
Apr 16, 2009
And you most importantly say over and over, "glass half full not half empty." And try not to get too worked up about trying to solve all the unfairness in the world. :)
Oh, the picture? Joe is not in it :)
Apr 15, 2009
There I am looking at a friend from high school's list of friends and I see on her list a guy named Tim that we knew in our ward in Indiana. Turns out she is related to him.
There I am on an old roommate from BYU's Facebook page and I see that she is friends with a good friend of mine from Kansas.
Then I get a message from another roommate from BYU wondering how I knew Amy Fackrell and it turns out she is Amy's older sister.
But I have a story that really tops all of those. In my ward in Kansas we had some good friends, The Heiner's. One day Shelley, the mom, was sorting through some of her hubby's old pictures and found a picture, taken at Hogle Zoo in Utah, of her hubby with an old girlfriend of his and in the background of the picture is my hubby, and I, and a stroller with Zach in it. It really made me think of all the people that end up in the background of my pictures. Will I meet them someday?
I really love reconnecting with people. Not a day goes by that something does not happen that will remind me of someone from my past.
Every time I do my canning in the summer I think of Kay since she thoughtfully gave me my canner.
Every time I see legwarmers I think of Warren because I wore them for the first time on a date with him to the Seattle Center.
Every time I see Bubble Yum gum I think about how when I was 15 or so I was at a birthday party for Ginger and I was embarrassed because I wanted to have a better present for her so I told her I had a whole bunch of packs of gum for her but they had gone, "moldy".....yeah, I know I can not lie well in a pinch :)
Every time I put on my red wool jacket I think of Kathryn since she gave it to me.
Every time I see a Vega (not often) I think of all 15 of the kids in my seminary class crammed into it heading to the high school.
Every time I get my hair colored I think of Shannon, who started me on my journey to becoming, "chemically dependant."
Every time I see forsythia I think of the walks Elyse and I used to take in Princeton.
I love when I call Laurie F. after all these years her hearty laugh immediately reminds me of SO much.
I love how when I have all the teenagers over for a party that I remember that I learned the importance of this from Laurie S.
I love that when I put mayonnaise and mustard in bowls to put on the table (never in their actual containers) I remember Cindy.
I love that I can tell the story about the moose kissing Brother Young's bum and always get a ton of laughs no matter where I live. :)
Well you know the list could go on and on as yours could too. Just remember that no matter what you do someone is remembering you for it.
Apr 14, 2009
Apr 13, 2009
My onions, and peas are finally up. Three of the five raspberry plants have little green growths on them. I am planning on borrowing some extremely heavy duty gloves this week and attacking the last remaining wilderness in the yard. It is a spot that is full of wild blackberry bushes that I decided I do not love. I want the space to put raspberry bushes instead. So that is my yard project this week.....fighting mother nature :)
I absolutely have to know if you hate Ben Linus. I have watched every episode of LOST from the beginning clear to last Wednesday's episode. I do not have the best memory. And I know I have at times hated Ben. But I feel like he may be misunderstood. I am having a hard time finding anyone that agrees with me, except the actual actor who plays Ben on the show.....check out this quote I found on Wikipedia;
"I have full sympathy [for Ben]. I believe he has a mission and an agenda that he hasn't shared with us yet. The survival of the earth may depend on Ben's work, so it justifies his ruthless behavior. Maybe I'm just fantasizing or deluding myself."
—Actor Michael Emerson, who plays Ben
As I spent the morning reading about Ben on the world wide web I realized that everyone agrees he plays one of the best villains on TV. One guy, named Dan Compora, even said that, "The more I hate Ben the more I realize that Michael Emerson is just a very fine actor doing his job." Michael Emerson does not even know what direction the character he plays is headed as he gets scripts at the very last minute and no back story.
Some unseen force is sucking me towards the movie theater to plunk down money to see Miley Cyrus' new Hannah Montana movie. I guess I could blame on it on having given birth to 5 girls if I tried really hard. But I confess I am curious if not for anything for the music. I have heard the music in the movie is really great. But never fear, I will wait until it comes out on DVD and pay my one buck at Redbox.
So that pretty much is what is on my mind on this sunny, but cold and windy, Monday in April.
Guess I should get a life, huh?
Apr 10, 2009
So tomorrow at 5:30 pm 57 people are coming to my house. They all bring two things to add to the meal and we have sandwiches, chips and salads. We combine all the plastic eggs everyone has brought and divide the total number of eggs by the number of kids hunting for them. The dad's hide them in the yard and the kids find them. We have ice cream and then everyone goes home.
Food gets smooshed into my carpet. Kids make messes everywhere in my house. We have been known to have to replace trampoline tops after this event. But I still love it.
I am a little nervous this year. What if Massachusetts does not like the Baird's Easter egg hunt? I just recently learned that just because you have always done something somewhere it does not mean that it will be needed and loved no matter where you go. Since Massachusetts has taught me that lesson I fear in that process it has destroyed the small amount of entertaining confidence I had :)
So do I need to explain why I can not write you a hilarious thought provoking blog at the moment? My mind is on cleaning and buying. But hang in there because next Monday I will be able to focus on entertaining all 40 of my daily readers again. :)
Apr 9, 2009
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Apr 6, 2009
He has not been very helpful when I ask what he wants for his birthday all he claims he wants is some, "sharp Cracker Barrel cheese and a bag of Starburst jelly beans?" Let's just say that the differences between men and women continue to amaze me. So I keep trying to think of something I really want/need that I could buy for him that he would possibly want/need too. :) But that is not working out so well.
I think what will end up happening for his birthday is that he will end up getting :
A child on a mission in Estonia.
A child at BYU.
A dentist bill.
Food for our annual Easter Egg Hunt on Saturday.
A red dress....Amanda needs a red dress(pronto) to wear to a friends Quincenera.
Church shoes...Tatiana has none
Funny thing is he will not call all his buddies and complain about the way the birthday went "down". He will not cry and call his mother if I do not manage to get jelly beans and cheese for him. He will not bring up the fact that every year I do a very poor job of honoring his birthday. He will simply eat his requested dinner of Sour Cream Chili Bake ( recipe from the Berghout's), he will wash it down with the root beer he requested then he will grab the whole pan of Blonde Brownies that were also requested and head to the "man room" to watch Fox news. And as far as I know he will be happy.
Apr 3, 2009
So if Jennifer drives 29 miles to East Hartford CT wearing her stylish black sweats and purchases $147.00 worth of food from Aldi and then drives back home and for the first time since moving to MA has full cupboards and fridge and happy children is it worth it to try to figure out how much she spent on gas? Probably not...we have already made plans to go to Aldi every other Thursday so be sure to tell me if you want to come. :)