Sep 3, 2012

Amanda Is Starting Out.....Look Out BYU Idaho.

Well my middle child officially closes the door on the living at home years today. Tomorrow morning bright and early she gets on an airplane and heads for Idaho and Brigham Young University. I have had this happen three times before. I am not a, "hold on to you forever and make you live close to me forever" kind of mom. I am always so excited to see them reach milestones and move on as it is supposed to be. But I always find myself mulling a lot of things over in my mind the night before each of them have left home. SO many questions I ask myself. SO many things I wonder if I remembered to teach them so they will be good roommates. So many memories it brings back to me. A few fears I have about what I know they will face and have I taught them how to handle it all?

 I have never had the chance to take one of my kids to college. Because of the hubby's work he always gets to fly out west with the newest college kid. I will never really know if they have everything they need. I never know what their dorm room looks like. I never meet their roommates. I never have any pictures of them standing in front of their new digs. I never get to fight crowds at the closest Target and Walmart to the college. I never get to insist that they have all the food groups in their cupboards and fridge before I leave. I never get to notice and point out that... AH-HA... they do need that one thing they thought they didn't. The funny thing is that they always are fine without any of these nevers :)

When I went to college in...1986.... my mom and dad loaded our big blue truck with all the things I thought I could not live without, me, and my two little brothers and we drove from Snohomish, Washington to Provo, Utah. I remember having a HUGE Costco size bottle of Jojoba shampoo with a side handle. I remember having a brand spanking new dictionary/thesaurus box set that I was extremely proud of. And it turned out I was one of the few who brought a stapler with me to college.

 I was the oldest kid in my family. I had no idea what setting up a dorm room meant. I had no older siblings to educate me. Because Amanda is the middle child she has this awesome opportunity to be able to ask three older siblings about what she needs to take. As soon as I got to BYU I  needed my parents to quickly take my two annoying brothers and leave and stop embarrassing me all over BYU campus with their loud exclamations of memories from when they were there. (yeah, I was a mature 18 :) As soon as they finally left I missed them for a second and then started setting up my room. I was so in love with the comforter my mom had made for me. I carefully hung up my favorite Mormon ad poster, pictures of teddy bears, and a very interesting assortment of things that mattered to me. After I set up I started venturing out and meeting the girls on the second floor of May Hall in Helaman Halls. As I wandered from dorm room to dorm room it became painfully aware to me that I knew nothing about setting up a dorm room. Some of these girls had carpets they had brought to cover the dorm room carpet, baskets to carry their bathroom supplies down to the bathroom in, matching decorations, tv's, stereo's. This was the first experience I had with some serious house envy :) I bet those girls are ALL interior designers today :) I really did not learn anything from those feelings of inadequacy that I had. Because, as of tomorrow, I will have sent 4 kids off to college with nothing matching. Nothing expensive. Nothing awesome. I would if they would let me. But not one of these Baird children has asked for anything for their college experience. I bought Amanda some hotpads and a small very cheap package of silverware. She claims all she needs is a bowl and a spoon....cereal and Ramen...duh :) I have yet to raise a high maintenance child and it worries me so :) The oldest had to have things and for the most part those things have been passed on from sibling to sibling.

My kids always choose the cheapest housing. They live without dishwashers. They embrace mold in the showers. All they care about is saving money. I have no idea why. If my parents wanted to buy me some things for college or even just some things for right now in my 43 year old life I would hardly protest :)

I am going to miss Miss Amanda......
She is so great with details.
She has so many great practical ideas on how things can be done better
She is such a good example.
She embraces her naturally curly hair.
She always has decorating advice. I always ask her where to hang pictures and such.
She makes me smile with her crazy legs dance that she burst into randomly.
She love to intersperse Spanish with English when she can.
She can motivate like nobody's business.
The cat LOVES Amanda. She plays and plays and plays with it.
Amanda loves to take pictures and I will miss her willingness to take pictures and her need for them to be in perfect lighting.
If you want a running partner to motivate you Amanda is your girl.
She never wavers on whatever path she has chosen.
I love that she can send me a text from school and tell me exactly where to go to get the three things she forgot.
She has the most organized closet of anyone on the planet

Last week she earned her Young Women's Medallion which is not for the faint of heart and took her six years to earn.  I was so overwhelmed as I looked around the room at the people who had come to support her in her accomplishment. She really did not want any recognition at all.

She is the first Baird child to get to go all four years at the same high school.
I am not sure how Joe and I will get up for seminary now that she is gone. She would never let us miss a day.

She is off to new adventures. She will get to add to her growing list of true friends. She will have more chances to figure out who she is. She will see what it is like to live among tons of other Mormons.

 I hope she never forgets that even though she can be the loudest Baird child we all love her dearly for that and so much more. I do not know what Tatiana and Natalie will do without someone to do their hair in fun ways for them. And what I will do without someone to tell me my dress or skirt is a little too short :) I am proud of the way she dealt with the disappointment of not getting accepted to BYU Provo. I am proud of how determined she is to do what is right. And I will miss her chocolate covered pretzels :)

I hope she knows that I was the best mom I knew how to be and that I am by NO means perfect. So far they have thankfully all come back from college with a sweet understanding of this :) And I hope she forgives me for posting silly pictures of her when she was little on my blog :) And I hope she enjoys her hotpads and silverware :)

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