Reality. Yeah, how much fun is that? I have come to realize lately that I am not the most realistic person in the bunch. I have had several reality checks in the past few months and at first I tried to ignore them but now I am realizing I need to sober up and accept the necessity of reality in my life. What brought all this reality talk on?
I can not rightly remember what time of year it was when I first arrived at Chevy Chase Beach Cabins. I have been there many times since and it all blurs together. But I will never forget the awe I felt at the location. See that picture I posted up there? That is what you see as you walk from your car across the impeccable lawn towards your cabin. I stand there every time and not to be too dramatic, but I sigh and get a small lump in my throat. i took this picture last time I was there. I wish I could take you all with me to these beach cabins. They call them cabins but honestly they are the most adorable little houses/cottages. I always stay in "cabin" #10. The cabins are decorated impeccably. The grounds are beautifully groomed. The views, the private beach, the kitchenette, the claw foot bathtub, quaint downtown Port Townsend that is not far away, the television, the fabulous supply of dvd's the owners offer, the Rose theater that is downtown Port Townsend, the fabulous shops in the downtown, the yummy places to eat, the sand dollars I have found on walks on the private beach, the bench on the hill overlooking Discovery Bay, the Olympic Mountain range in the distance, the amazing people who own it all, the ferry boat ride to get there. I can not say anything bad about Chevy Chase Beach Cabins at all.
I have been back several times since that first time. Every time I go I long to share it with someone. I fear sometimes I may burst with my need to find someone who would appreciate this gem as much as I do. I try to go at least once a year now that I live so much closer to Washington than I have lived in a long time. This trip to Port Townsend is a special treat for me. It rejuvenates me more than I can tell you. I never go during peak season. I am a frugal girl. I always go in the Fall or early Spring before prices change.
Why am I blogging about this?
Because I was supposed to go there this last weekend, but to make a super long, complicated story short I cancelled my reservation at the last minute. Which was costly, but necessary. I have to face the reality of what my life is now. I really do not want to. I have been fighting it for all I am worth. It takes some courage to look at your life and be honest about where you are and then to stop fighting where you are. I keep thinking I can go do these things that single moms who live with their parents really should not be doing. I made this reservation around Christmas time. I decided it would be my Christmas present for me. When you are a single mom no one really remembers you at Christmas and I decided rather than feel sad about it I would just take the opportunity to treat myself. I looked carefully at my calendar. I found a date next to a weekend when there was no school in our town. I thought of everything. But it turns out not really everything. My parents ended up going to California and no matter how I tried to arrange things for my girls so that I could go without having to worry about them nothing seemed to go right. Reality.
Reality is something that is real. It is the state of things as they are or appear to be, rather than as one might wish them to be. I have to start facing this reality...you know the;
" the way of it,"
"the nuts and bolts,"
"like it is"
Not just with Chevy Chase Beach cabins. This reality check has made me think about other things I need to be realistic about :
Relationships. I definitely need to be realistic about those. Stop having hope.
The amount of Reese's I eat.
I am a school bus driver, that not only drives a school bus, but washes 6 buses a week to make extra money.I wonder what you would all think if you saw me out there in the pouring rain with my rain boots on scrubbing away at the bus.
Reality and I need to make peace with one another. You should all be so proud of me. Maybe there is an award for grown ups who finally embrace reality.
Since I can not go to Chevy Chase Beach Cabins for awhile now I am posting the link to their website so that you can check it out and go in my place. You will not be disappointed. http://www.chevychasebeachcabins.com/